Chapter 140: Sincerity
It wasn’t until they reached the most core, secret area of the warship—the Nine-Story Turret—that Qin Yanzhou finally let her go and turned to walk out.
“Wait.”
“Qin Yanzhou!”
The girl called out to him.
“What exactly is this place?”
The man stopped. With his back to her, his hoarse voice spoke each word slowly, “The place where you will live from now on.”
“The place where I will live?”
Su Miantang looked around.
Aside from various advanced weapons and shells, there were only cold floors. How was this a place for someone to live?
“I will have people renovate it. I will change it little by little into the way you like.”
Wait…
“I will have the most delicious food, the most beautiful dresses, and the most interesting toys sent here.”
Hold on.
“I will also move in to stay by your side. I will never leave, so you won’t be bored.”
Him?
Listening to his self-muttering, Su Miantang recalled those messages on her light computer. He seemed to have fallen into some kind of manic state, unable to pull himself out.
“Qin Yanzhou, are you alright?”
Her soft word of concern abruptly cut off his speech.
Qin Yanzhou’s back trembled. His fingers, encased in the high-tech gloves, tightened until they made a sickening, creaking sound.
After a long time, and with what seemed like a monumental effort, he spoke again.
“Tang… Tang.”
“Were you specifically hired by my mother to treat me?”
He already knew the answer.
Even at this point.
A sliver of hope still lingered in his heart, hoping to hear her say something—anything—different.
“Yes, didn’t you know?”
Her casual sentence was like a thunderclap, completely destroying the man’s last shred of reason and extinguishing his last spark of hope.
It was true.
It was all true…
The demon was right.
She never loved him…
Everything was just a pipe dream!
Heh.
Hehe!
The man’s tall, upright frame suddenly shook violently, giving Su Miantang the impression he might collapse at any moment. She wanted to step forward to support him, but he suddenly straightened up, appearing to have returned to normal.
A moment later, he turned and slowly took off his mask and sunglasses.
In an instant, Su Miantang clearly saw the dense red rash on his face and the soul-consuming darkness in his eyes.
“Qin Yanzhou, you’re having an allergic reaction?!”
However, more terrifying than the allergy was the manic, abnormal light in his eyes, like that of a mad beast.
His words were icy, sharp, and perverse.
“Su Miantang, from now on, you are not allowed to go anywhere. You can’t go anywhere. You can only stay by my side. Stay by my side forever.”
“You belong to me. To me alone!”
“I can do whatever I want with you. I can do whatever I want to you. You cannot resist, and you can never leave me. Not in this lifetime!”
“Until we are old, until we are dead, I will never let you go. Never!”
Su Miantang: “…”
This reaction… he wasn’t in estrus, and it wasn’t just an illness. Was he… blackening?
The Little Snow Leopard had turned into a Big Black Leopard?
Why?
Was it just because she was invited by Madam Qin Xu to treat him?
She thought he had known all along, which was why she never mentioned it.
“Qin Yanzhou.”
She spoke.
The man ignored her, walking straight to the warship’s T-shield system. He opened the defense box and pulled out a pair of electronic handcuffs.
No matter what she said or did, he would not soften. He would not let her go.
Never!
“…” Looking at the familiar handcuffs, Su Miantang said, “I was indeed invited by Madam Qin Xu to treat you, but throughout the process, I was sincere.”
Sincere?
The man froze.
Every single thing she did, every word she said… was sincere?
As if reading the look in his eyes, Su Miantang nodded. “Yes.”
At first, his discrimination and disgust toward females had made her uncomfortable, but after learning the reason—his tragic childhood—she felt sympathy.
After spending time together, she realized his nature was actually simple, honest, and brave. That sympathy had unknowingly turned into heartache.
Such an outstanding person shouldn’t have his life ruined by a demon, nor should he be trapped forever in the shadows.
She sincerely hoped he would get better, both physically and mentally.
No.
Impossible.
Impossible…
The darkness in Qin Yanzhou’s eyes flickered uncontrollably.
How could she possibly love him?
An unclean male…
The haunting voice echoed in his mind, pressuring his nerves.
“You’re only saying that so you can escape, aren’t you?”
Just like her dates with him were only to complete his mother’s task!
“Su Miantang, stop dreaming. I will never let you go!”
“For the rest of your life, you will be imprisoned here. You will be with me forever, forever. You will never see the light of day again!”
In an instant, he lunged before her. His brow was filled with violence and obsession. The dark iron handcuffs in his hand clinked with an ominous, terrifying sound. He looked like a savage beast ready to devour human flesh.
But Su Miantang wasn’t afraid at all.
She knew how kind and innocent he truly was. He was only acting this way out of fear—fear of being hurt again. He was merely putting on a disguise to protect himself.
“I’m not.”
She looked up, her clear, amber eyes fixed on him. She seemed to be laying herself out completely, without reservation, before him.
I am sincere. It has nothing to do with anything else.
You can hurt me if you wish, but I don’t think you will.
If she hit him, cursed him, or hated him…
He could have continued. But facing such a gentle yet firm gaze—a light brighter than the sun—he was utterly broken. His disguise crumbled into pieces.
“How is it possible?”
“How could you possibly love me?”
“I’m so filthy…”
“You must despise me. You must find me disgusting, right? Just like in the dream…”
He suddenly lowered his head like a child who had done something wrong. His hand trembled as he reached for the back of his neck, touching the ruined gland membrane. His voice became incredibly coarse and raspy, as if his vocal cords had been shredded.
Filthy? Despise?
Why would he say that?
Su Miantang was shocked. Seeing his movement, she finally understood.
So, the true root of his mental illness was right here.
The Qin couple had told her that when Abigail tried to forcibly mark him as a child, she destroyed his gland membrane. She hadn’t given it much thought, but she hadn’t expected it to be such a massive blow to him, leaving him this insecure and terrified.
Since he cared so much about this membrane…
Su Miantang slowly raised her hand.
Sure enough.
Seeing her gather her pheromones, a sliver of relieved laughter appeared in Qin Yanzhou’s trembling eyes.
As expected, she despised him. She found him utterly disgusting.
Especially now, as he tried to imprison and possess her—just like that demon from years ago. He had said so many despicable, shameless things. She must hate him. He must be revolting to her.
She was an SSSS-grade female, the supreme sovereign of the world. She only needed a sliver of pheromones to kill him effortlessly.
Kill him, then.
With a clatter, the cold handcuffs fell to the floor. He dropped to his knees, his head hanging low. He looked like a prisoner at the end of his rope, having given up everything.
He couldn’t do it. He couldn’t imprison her.
The moment he saw her, he only wanted to be close to her, to embrace her, to make her happy, and to see her smile. He couldn’t bear to see her frown or look sad. He couldn’t even imagine her being afraid of him. Every cruel, shameless word he spoke to hurt her made him want to kill himself.
Since he couldn’t have her love, and since he couldn’t be with her forever, then dying by her hand would be a form of happiness.
He quietly closed his eyes, awaiting the slaughter of his beloved’s pheromones. He awaited the arrival of death.
Translator’s Note: Oh, Yanzhou… his self-loathing is so deep. In this world, the gland membrane is often seen as a symbol of “purity” for males, similar to traditional concepts of chastity. The fact that Su Miantang is an SSSS-grade female makes him feel even more unworthy. Stay tuned for the next chapter to see how Miantang heals his heart!
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